Lost Hope Poem by Isabella Night

Since when can you brag about how you've 'changed'?
I've been wanting you to for years.
But now that you are 'changing', I just grit my teeth in anger.
You try to hug me and pretend that I am your precious daughter.
I can honestly say that you don't resemble my father.
But wait...I can't even recall who my father was.
So how is it exactly fair for us to decide if you are changing?
I have given up fighting.
Fighting for you, me, and our 'family'.
I can't let go of this and I need to so I can stop holding this grudge against you.
I am filled with such anger!
And I shouldn't have to be, but this is all your fault.
You haven't and will never change.
I'm waiting for your 180 degree change to be a 360 like it always has been.
A person can only take so much disappointment.
Then everything you do has no bar on the height for expectations.
I haven't a hope or care for this 'change'.
You'll go back to whoever you were.
This facade you are putting on has been used countless times.
You've let me down everytime.
Now, you won't be able to let me down anymore.
Because there is no hope to be let down.