Love Of Two Can Make A Girl Wonder Poem by Courtney Redmond

What am I doing
I’ve never been through this
The one I love is so far away
Yet someone who I like and can get what I need is here
I’m so confused
If he had asked me before about doing the things we do earlier
I would be more into it
But I’m not
I’m afraid to lose the best person in my life
I want my baby so much to be here
But he is somewhere else
And I can’t stop him from being there
I miss him so much
My friend is great now but what will happen after
I mean I like him I can admit that
But I don’t really want him the way I used to
Ohh lord please help me
I can’t figure out the world anymore
There’s too many obstacles and choices to make
But when the time comes to deciding them
It all falls apart
It almost like your head is telling you to enjoy what you have now
But your heart holds you back with the constant reminder that
the one who loves you and who you love is not too far from you
I want cry
For the fact I miss them both
Yes one more then the other
But what is a girl to do when she has love
But its not with her
Is she supposed to stay put and wonder
Or go find it in another
I finally understand why women do the things they do in relationships
With meeting new people not anticipating something more then a friendship
But something more arises and you find yourself lost in something that fresh and new
I finally get it
I need love
No more running from love
When its one of the things that is keeping me grounded
And not going back to floating in nothing
Im here and its here to stay
For ever and ever