Mark, Once Again.. Poem by Eman Awad

I'm the one who loved you all my life,
i'm the one who got so lost after you were gone.
Falling in love again isn't only a strife,
an old wound that re opens whenever i carry on.
I can't imagine that i forgot your kind face,
i can't believe how many years that went on by.
I die to the thought of you being in my place,
but i can't seem to know you, and to that i cry.
Your memory'll always be my never to forget,
and my heart still beats longing for that time.
The only mistake i'm sure i'll never regret,
the only heart that i know it used to be mine.
I fell in love but it was never the same,
i got hurt and i knew i will never replace you.
I couldn't figure out who is to blame,
i just tried to reach the end and wait for you.
I told my self it either waiting for Mark,
or waiting to find another Mark, once again.
These thoughts landed me in the dark,
i felt that my heart brings me nothing but pain.
Knowing that i'm standing very still,
and each life i know and don't know, goes on.
That thought created a life of hell,
and i know that because of me you were gone.
I go to where we first met and i shed a tear,
and the same time each day my eyes wilt away.
It's, Mark, once again, my greatest fear,
knowing i can't forget and he's here to stay...