Monopolize Poem by Christin Seya

It is despair when I'm awake
so deep in my bones
restlessly.
I thought it to be normal
for me to be not normal at all.
But not all feelings convey the same
hopelessness.

Help me
I'd like to say
if I could.
But the despair drowns my voice.

How is it so uncommonly cruel
to drown alive with so many witnesses
but no one to notice?

So leave me if you wish to live
for my bones and heart are aching
so bittersweet
tormenting
my very self and if there is
nothing more to devour
from me

I will hunt you for love.