Even if I wanted to
I don't think I can completely forgive you.
I miss you dearly
But since we parted, I've been able to think more clearly.
I wonder, do you think of me?
Or are you just happy to leave things be?
Are you sorry for what you did?
Knowing that you abused your kid!
Do you really believe you have done nothing wrong?
Sticking to your guns, all powerful and strong.
How could you ignore the signs?
Pretending to all that everything was fine.
Don't you feel any shame?
Do you honestly think you're not to blame?
Why weren't you willing to make amends?
Mothers and daughters are supposed to be the best of friends.
It saddens me that you don't know who I really am
And upsets me that you don't seem to give a damn.
Aren't you a little bit curious?
Or does the sight of me make you furious?
I know that I can't change the past
But all I want is love and for it to last.
Did I make the right choice?
By breaking the silence and using my voice?
I know you probably now hate me
And by me speaking up, has made you angry.
But you made it come to this
By constantly taking the p**s.
If only you would accept some sort of responsibility
By admiting the awful things that you did and allowed to happen to me.
But that day will never come
And that really hurts me, mum.
I want nothing more than to be able to talk to you
Tell you my problems and ask what you would do?
How I wish you were proud of me
Cause that's all I ever wanted you to be! ! !
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.