I feel small, fragile and weak
And it upsets me when people try to stick in their beak.
The stares and questions you can see on people's lips
How I wish I could aboid all the Rollercoaster dips!
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I am so tired
Sick of all the questions being fired.
My head wants to go pop
I'm begging for it all to stop.
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A gift was sent to thee
A lovely gift by the name of Sammi.
I met her online, one dark and lonely night
She is so caring, funny and bright.
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It's christmas time
An excuse to eat junk and drink loads of wine.
Hanging decorations on the tree
Make it pretty for all to see.
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I will always stand by you
Stick by your side like super-glue.
I'll come running when you shourt
I'll be there without a doubt.
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Looking in the mirror
Wishing I could disappear.
Everything I see I hate
But there is no way of changing fate.
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You popped into my head today
Whilst I was innocently looking the other way.
It was only for a minute or two
I don't know what made me think of you.
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Dad, you'll always be my herro
You could never amount to zero.
You may not have always been there
But that doesn't mean that you didn't care.
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The Garden of Eden
Isn't that in Sweden?
Does it really exist?
Is it really so hard to resist?
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I really don't want to make you feel bad
But yes, you have made me feel sad
I know you didn't mean to
And I can't even imagine what you're going through? ?
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This is a poem for my friend Jade
To help her feel not so afraid.
I know that she is feeling really low
But she has to try and let the past go.
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The sun is rising, ready to whisk me away
Yesterday's the past, it's the start of a new day.
The clouds how they gather all fluffy and white
The birds in the trees chirping so bright.
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A happy place I like to be
Is walking out beside the sea.
The soft sand between my toes
The child-hood memories begin to show.
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Not many people know me for real
What I'm thinking or how I feel.
One day I'll find that someone special to hold
Follow the rainbow to my pot of gold.
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It's now time to move out of my home
The place where I was free to roam.
For a year it was the haven where I felt safe
Somewhere I could be happy adn hold a little faith.
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So much going on inside my head
Memories that fill me with dread.
So much hurt built up inside
Emotions flowing and ready to collide.
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My Nana and Bampy
Who always do thier best to make their granddaughter happy.
They have always been there
To show me how much they care.
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Am I fixiated?
With things that happened in the past that I hated.
I can't change the past
I need to move on and fast.
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Is he making a big mistake?
Is it really her hand in marriage he wants to take?
Does he really love a paedophile?
If he knew the truth, would he run a mile?
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Mothers Day means nothing to me
is this really how you wanted things to be?
Once upon a time I had a mum
but you were disappointed and wished I hadn't come.
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Fairground Feeling
I feel small, fragile and weak
And it upsets me when people try to stick in their beak.
The stares and questions you can see on people's lips
How I wish I could aboid all the Rollercoaster dips!
My brain's like a Helter Skelter on a bumpy ride
Spiralling down-hill, I no longer have pride.
The Waltzer is spinning like my life, out of control
I'm being push over the edge of the Big Dipper and I'm likely to roll.
Slowly like the Ferris Wheel, I reach the top
The stars are within reach, but then there's a drop!
The Merry-Go-Round of all different emotions
I've been through the Fun House all doped up on potions.
I'm screaming as I buzz around
An adrenalin rush, I take in all the sounds.
The candy floss all fluffy and light
Keep on with the ride, you'll come out alright! ?