Mourning (To My Mother) Poem by Kristina Louisa Carr

Flying above water in new time and space
Memories remain and cannot be erased
Waters ripple with soft winds approaching
I bathe in despair and miss your coaching

Treasures discarded or carefully tucked away
Beautiful flowers in vases send in a bouquet
The green of your eyes once deep like the ocean
They no longer see and are void of emotion

Humble assumptions received in a letter
Meant to console do not make me feel better
Ripped out from my life you left a deep scar
The silence around me seems almost bizarre

Your book of life is now open for evaluation
And it is much too late for a new foundation
Your sweater will never give you warmth again
While my tears burn trails like hot acid rain

The days before yesterday I lose out of sight
And my tomorrows are foggy under a blue light
I feel the time that I have lost a long time ago
While new days settle in like icicles and snow

Mistakes speak loudly and echo in my room
But every season passes by all in full bloom
Regret is hurtful because I ignored the signs
While the words disappear between the lines

Today I look at death with a new perspective
Because you cleared the road very effective
No longer afraid because you will be there
I will live out my days the best I can and prepare

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