My Answer To His Poem Poem by Tahnee Somebody

Behind Our Disguise

If I chose to remain behind this painted face
Would you still try to look into my darkened eyes
Could you picture the truth
And sift through all the lies
Because even a well-warn mask
Has glitches that may be seen
Places where the paint wears off
And you get a glimpse of me
Please just for now, retouch the paint
Let me hide behind my disguise
But please don’t give up just yet
Take my hand before I die
Before I fall into this nothingness
That this camouflage creates
It’s hard to just be myself
When I’ve made so many mistakes
So much pain has been suppressed
It’s not easy to bare my skin
I’m scared of the reaction
Given when I let somebody in
This paint I wear as my armour
It’s my saviour in a way
It’s allowing me to show to people
Just what it is I’m willing to say
This frown that I wear in my heart
Hidden by the falsity of my decorated smile
Keeps a judgment from the hands of people
Ready to put my soul on trial
I could stand here naked
In front of pleading eyes
But still I will remain
Hidden deeply in disguise
The person that is there
The person they think they see
Is the one conjured up
But it’s not really me
My painted armour
My heavily burdened spirit
Needs to remain in the darkness
Until the world is ready for it
And what is it you see when you look my way
What reaction hides behind your eyes
For even though I’m deeply buried
You’re also hidden in your disguise
Sometimes you reach out
And you offer me your hand
I try to analyse your reasoning
And how come you understand
I look up to you, you know
I think you are a one-and-only
Patiently waiting still holding out your hand
With so much invested in me
Is my mask so thinly worn
That you can see right through
Why put everything on the line
And do all one person can do
For a person who sees no reason
Who sees no point at all
Why risk everything you have
Just to stop her fall
I may never understand
Just what beauty you see inside
But I hope one day I can be me
With no reason left to hide
And all that you have done
Would be recognised
So we’d have no reason left
To hide behind our disguise