My Creation Poem by Miral El Nahry

No one can give me one good reason,
Not to pull the trigger
From My Situation,
I couldnt have felt sicker
All these people surround me..
But have they really cared?
So i think about all the things you told me..
All the things you shared..
You made me believe
Oh..when you gave me a relief..
But now im left with what i dont know
You told me you're fake
Something i created to make me glow
So lie to me..Just for our lies sake
Tell me you need me..Even if its not true
Dont save my soul..To me it doesnt matter
I dont care because of the decieving that grew
I know things always shatter..
Life is nothing but a game that im failing in
Because of all the things i made, you broke me
It's because you're my creation..A complete sin
If i created you..Then why would you leave me behind?
So many answers that i cant find..
Am I going crazy?
Have i lost my mind?
Dont you think its funny?
Dont you see my laughing?
Through my blind eyes..To my deaf Ears..
To my mouth that would speak no more..
I laugh at me and you
& How could i not see
That is wasnt me you threw
After what we were planning to be
But was it just me?
Was it just me who had those dreams?
And me with these forceful gleams..
You made me realize how things were so wrong & so right
Admist it all, Suicide shone so bright
When it's all over,
When I feel no longer
I will destroy it all
No more creations..No more hallucinations
Even if things fall
I know you wont be there & You wont care
That's the part that hurts the most..
You were just my creation..
But without you..Ill be so lost..
So I'll pull the trigger..Because Im so sick of us..