My Decision... Poem by hazem al jaber

your feelings so precious to me...
but i don`t want to burn myself...
want to live with a peace...
peaceful without moral damage...
there is no fairness in this world`s things...
means, be or not to be...
yes or no...
love or not love...
believe me, that i put my feelings out...
enough me to thought so deep about others...
it a time, to think about myself and about my future...
don`t want to stop me any thing...
even my feelings...
because a love means a weakness...
weakness with all measures...
even humbleness some times...
buried my heart from a long time...
and consoled myself about my lost...
but seeing your words now...
as whom trying to dig up what i buried so deeply deep...
so, please mercy me from this phantom...
because its bleeding my heart...
and hurts me so deep inside my heart...
i am not able now to bear any shocks anymore...
nor any experiment which get me a down again...
and keep me as a big loser...
so...
i will not allow to you and to your words...
to change my feelings...
that is the decision...
that is my last decision....