My Dream Was Your End (And No One Said I'M Beautiful) Poem by Eman Awad

I read what you wrote about me,
and i know that no one dares to say i'm beautiful.
It's not my fault you don't see,
that i'm beautiful inside but you said i'm beautiful.
Who told you he doesn't love me too,
we're new in this and we're still at the line of start.
I was so surprised in what he saw in you,
that i spent a long time trying to heal his heart.
I never tried to be like you one day,
but i didn't have a choice, my dream was your end.
I know he's not taken and swept away,
so i tried to make him and i faked being your friend.
I build my home over your ashes, i know,
but i've been broken before and i'm getting over that.
His smile like you say, makes my stars glow,
and when i said you weren't meant to be, it wasn't hat bad.
Where were you when i was in pain,
seeing you both together and wishing you disappear.
I had days when i hated your name,
and if he never forgot you that's my greatest fear.
I know he was your very first love,
and i know it's so hard to get that over with.
But i'm in what you never thought of,
hurt before and i'm healing my wounds in lonliness.
I think you should thank god, your fine,
i know that you're better in so many ways.
But get over that, the guy is mine,
and i promised him i'm here till always.
If he loved you truely, he wouldn't be,
not talking much about you these days at all.
He's fine now and the thanks to me,
go and have a life, find a heart and fall...