My Heart's Out There Alone Poem by Shilesha Johnson

My hearts out there alone
Were in this relationship together
But yet I feel on my own
My hearts on the line
Just as it is every time
And I feel like this whole time
All we’ve been is a lie
A joke
Cause there were so many promises broke
So many UN-kept
And each time I think I’m a be let down
I am left
Out there in the cold
No ones hand to hold
No ones shoulder
No one to hold me closer
Out there all alone
And you never have to tell me you don’t love me anymore
Cause it’s already shown
And I get it
So I’m falling back
And anytime you see me distance myself and you wonder why
Don’t ask
Just think
About all the times you left me feeling empty
Compared to all the times I stood by you
And anyone that stayed as long as I did
Is only considered a fool
I can see pass the pain when it comes to you
Because I care that much
And I thought that this feeling would go away
But it cuts
And I feel like every time I cry
You feel like so what
Like being with me is nothing special
And you keep hurting me
But I keep letting you
I don’t know how to approach this
I think it would have been better if we just let it end
And leave it alone
Cause I don’t think you want’ this like you say you do
And I’ve known
I just tried to make it seem like it was nothing
When you not wanting to be with me IS a BIG something