My Life Poem by phillip dalsing

as time roles on all the stuf i'm missing is gone
people i love and who are close to me are dieing or deceased
it fells like their is nothing in this cruel world left for me
dont want to go back to smoking methamphetamine
that is the past but who really wants to be me
is it you or little boy blue i want to be loved
i can't even get a hug with passion and love
matbe i should be like my parents and run to drugs
i don't want to do that but who will give me love
can it be a pair of shoes or money no it has to be you
i've stole from people by doing this i stole from myself
i lost half my childhood for what it is wealth
what i have i will give as long as you forgive
forgive whom me myself and my parents for we don't go to hell
i want to go too your golden gates in heaven and ring your bell
is earth another name for Lucifer home called hell
maybe i'm crazy or perfectly sane but like anyone i fell pain
pain for myself and my loved ones i'm scared of the phone that's a-
problem
the phone rings and i figure it's my sister telling memy mom is gone
it scares me every day what will i do when that day comes
will i take my life or will i just cry and wonder why
it's not my fault but her her own she had a choice to shoot up dope
my dad isn't perfect he's done drugs why do i love him so much
because he keeps it real with me he never beats around the bush
he told me i had to stay somewhere else it was cool
that he was honest with me and broke down cried and hugged me
i miss him so much i hope he fells my pain because it's love
dang love hurts you so but in the end it completes your soul
all i care about right now is running up an down that court
and getting my degree so i don't live in the streets
thats's the life of an nobody and i'm a somebody to me
so i'm going to follow the past my feet lead me.