My Past Poem by Angie Fye

Trying so hard to forget my past
Trying to leave you behind
Thinking of ways to let you go
But there's no sign of me letting go
Knowing that you had forgotten me
I do things that I shouldn't
Opening the bottle
And popping the pills
They seem to ease the pain
But only for a short while
Trying so hard to let you go
But nothing I try seems to work
Lighting one up
And crying the memories away
Not knowing where to turn
Because there's no one here for me
Taking the razor
And cutting away the hurt
Not wanting to deal with it anymore
I try to end my life
Dark and enclosed
It's hard to breathe
Can't think of any other way
Except leave painlessly
Turning to walk away
I say my goodbyes
Not wanting to return
So that way you don't realize
Someday you will remember me
When I see you again
But for now just forget me
Because I'm no longer around
Saying it nicely
But I want to forget you
You were my one true friend
That always lended me a hand
Always forgiving
And never looking down on me
That's why it hurt me so bad
When you had to leave me
Now i see that fateful day
When you lie there without a breath left
I must say
That is the reason why
Don't want to disappoint you
But it's the only way
Trying so hard to ease the pain
But nothing ever seems to work
Trying to get the vision out of my mind
But it keeps coming back
So I lie here just like you
With no life and no breath left
Coming to see you again
So we can chat once more
I know it's not what you want
But I'm doin it for me
So don't be disappointed
When I walk up to you
All I'm trying to do
Is see you one last time
To tell you how much i'm sorry
For all the disappointment I've caused you
So I'm sorry to say
That i'm no longer breathing
Coming up to see you
But I fear that you will reject me
But you must understand
That I can't ever forget you
Don't want you to be mad
Because with you I'm free of pain