My Realization - Me Rambaling Poem by Sabrina Perry

Well life is going pretty good right now depending on how you look at it.. Of course there are the ups and downs but again that's just life.. I've been wasted for quite some time and I've come to the realization that I need to lead a sober life to be as successful as I want to be... Alcohol is my crutch and right now it's the only thing that really matters to me..Other than a boy er two..lol... school is going really well for me I am getting some of the best msrks ive ever had in my life.... finally my intellectual side has emerged. its all up hill from here. but im scared that if i shoot for the stars im going to miss... yet another failure on my record... i dont want to disappoint the ones i love, the ones that believe in me, but more so i dont want to disappoint myself.. though it should be something im used to by now. ive never had anybody who i loved that genuinley loved me back and its hard, its life. i feel like that time, that person will never come alhtough everybody i know tells me patience is key... the upsetting part is that they dont realize how little that advice helps. its time i embrace who i am who ever that is... though im scared if i find myself i wont like her... anybody i ask tells me im an upbeat energetic happy person, but on the inside thats really not the case. maybe if i find someone who will love me, ill find that im really not the person i fear i am. i am telling you all of this, not because i want anything from you. no advice. not a reply. not for you to love me. but simply because i needed somebody to listen. thank you.


(i realize i have alot of gramatical errors, i will fix them when the times allows.)