My Silent Sigh (For You) Poem by Maya Hershey

Our story was beautiful... It was real..
It was a time of two souls to drown and feel..
feel alive and in love... You were my first.. My first to heal..
My first to give all my letters, songs and voice of reel...
But One day... You took them all and teared them apart..
I felt for the first time.. How it's like to part..
All those poems I wrote were to help you forget me,
forget that there used to be Maya Hershey,
This girl who loved you, encouraged you and gave you a heart,
A heart that you destroyed and broke apart.
That day where you left... With a picture of you cheating in my head,
And weeks later, you're in a relationship with her they said,
I didnt believe untill i saw it and Realized you're in love again...
So I thought and thought all in that night and felt that we're dead...
'Why did he do this? What went wrong?
Was it something I said or was he so young?
To handle my love and all this I gave him so dear?
Or was I ugly in 23 July this year? '
But it wasnt any of the above.. Our love was shallow,
Our love was the sounds of autumn in a space so hollow.
Untill three days ago.. where you asked me,
What did you expect? I expected an instant sorry,
I removed you from my facebook so you can feel,
afraid to lose what we have and try to heal.
But you left and simply said something so sore,
'You won't Know me anymore'.
At That moment... I did not really,
This Thing you did was you getting away from me,
unforgivable and unfaithfull,
sick and so fatal,
You were not the guy I used to know,
You were cold, heartless, confused and low,
But yet... When you left I didnt cry,
I felt it was something I had to try,
So that I could learn to live and complete,
this mission we are all upon in bleak.
The next day.. I removed you from my life,
and all the songs didnt receed in my mind,
and your promise you would come back,
was simple words that have faded to black,
I believe you felt sore and blown away,
or even those words wont express the way,
you felt before reading this poem of despair
I know how you feel right now, confused and unaware,
of what might happen if you will say 'sorry I miss you',
'It was easy but now its getting harder for us two'.
And what really surprised me is that you felt mad I'm with someone now
But Actually you're with someone too, you moved on, it seems how,
You still blame me for things you do and I didnt and wont do,
I'll never give someone the things I gave you.
But now all this seems to make no sense...
Cuz you're dead to me... no offense..
But even if we're back together someday,
I won't feel the same way about you today.
Cuz you made the biggest mistake of your life...
You let me go without thinking and how you deprived...
Yourself of my love ever again..
It's not too late... It's never too late.
Yes, I ended it. But now Let me ask, what have you expected?
I'll answer this too. You thought I might never do what I did.
You even went to france without saying goodbye..
Without asking about me or wondering how's my life sigh..
Ah..... That's my sigh today..
Everytime I look at this thing I painted for you to stay,
to stay in love with me forever and ever..
never to forget me ever and ever..
But I still have it and it's all done.
I even put it on facebook with all the others I've won.
But you weren't there to see it...
You weren't there to take it...
And now.. You arent here to ask about it..
But don't worry.. I'll always keep it with me in the drawer beside me.
To look at it as the last memory I have left from you to keep.
Do you still think of me when you talk to her?
And feel guilt for making a mistake of unfair?
hmmmm well... I want you to google this song..
And maybe you'll remember me again and long..
it's called 'Letters' by Yann Tiersen so listen..
And close your eyes and feel the rythm...
It's the only thing I have left to give you..
Beside all the love I have given to you..
But yet... I didnt take away with me..
I kept it for you... to feel, cry and percieve..
I loved you, I loved you, Oh yes I did...
About this song... I know how to play it on the piano.. see?
And the reason I learned it... is maybe you might wanna hear it from me
After you listen... and listen... and listen and surrender more,
yes.. surrender to what your heart really tells you to fight for.
And if you ever wonder... I'm doing all fine. I even started a gallery!
hehe yea! I'm so happy with my life... It's not for the salery..
Ah... I'm never speechless... My words are always true..
I know you'll be happy to read this and heal your face so blue..
So now I have to leave... I spent hours writing this poem with no lie..
Goodbye for now... Goodbye :)