- - My Stella- - Poem by Prabir Gayen

Meditative journey


Thou art with me or I am in
Thy being rooted from millions of ages,
beyond the first great sentence.
The space within space, love within love,
Wordless, numbness within indolence.
Thou art close as my eyes to me,
Interiority of my heart nurtures thee in deep
Slumberous nourishment.
The closest remains, a theory, a doctrine, deluding realm of rhetoric,
and catching, alluring poesy,
The most distant field, for my overflowed being
With dead habits, and non attendance to transcendence.
Thou art in my very being and experience drops to naught,
The bud is ecstatic within its fragrance
and meditation in its honeydew.
No opening to bower outside with manifold
Wonder to bloom to victory.
Love stays and river flows at its sweet will
and I am onto thy bosom to float without goal.
The very center of my being is thy center,
The cosmic drop into thy abysmal part where
I breath the fragrance of life.
I searched thee in every pain of my heart
Loaded with false notion of dream of future,
Objective mutation leads to extreme naught.

I came as a vacant mind without thee into this
deluding realm before thou came and life became an idle worship,
In myworshipping self thou art there as prayerlessprayer, and my seeking for thee,
hast left me in a shore of desperation.
As a tree uprooted from the source of life
I floated in the ocean of being without knowing
and seeking without subjective mutation.
The more I flow the more nearness follows
and like a fish seeking ocean I wept for thee
and thou came as an unknown ocean, drop
Into me - my self, dried with extreme heat of life's sordidness.
A dignified distance that is born with
innocence and nearness felt,
Thou art to me a separate self to be one again
to make a heaven for both of us with our
elementary crassness.

Years ago separation happens in deep communion,
In a state of deep spiritual intercourse,
Without the feeling of ego sense,
Separate body, separate mind and separate consciousness.
Like Adam and Evebeyond creation we wert an innocent soul with no feeling of two as baby in the womb, rapt in mindless celebration.
As part of the whole within whole we wert total
With no division listening to soundless sound.
We wert conscious, fully and self-luminous without concept to project,
We flowedas part of Nature with its deep cosmic unity and flow of naturalness.