My Two Tiny Men Poem by Josh B.

Cleaning the mess that is my life the broken pieces of toys like memories haunting me.
my addiction is trying to break me- constantly- reminding me of why I'm staying clean.
tears soaking the floor of the room I laid to lick my wounds of what their mother did to me.
Addiction is the silent enemy that never takes the blame back and forth between recovery and relapse but I don't want to play that game.
My name isnt junkie meth head or druggie it's Joshua AKA daddy...
my sons' best friend...
my to tiny men!
Daddy misses you so bad it hurts inside.
I'd be lying if I said I'm not crying while I'm writing this rhyme. Line for line my eyes keep getting less dry. If I ever lost you both for good... I swear my heart would give and I would die.
Everyone can sit there saying words that burn more than the drugs ever did. I didn't lose my boys I lost myself, but now I'm found. Now I'm coming to show everyone. When it comes to my boys no matter how beaten and broken I will always rise watch the determination burn in my eyes whatever the cost I'll ante up take it all in stride. Don't worry daddy's coming my two baby boys to hug you and never let you go daddy told you that day at bulls dam, no matter what Daddy will always love you, even if I'm not there. There's nothing you could ever do to make me not love you. I want you to know that if I'm not there I don't care what it takes I'll do whatever I have to, to make it through to make it back to you and the first thing we're going to do after I hug you for an hour each...

we're going to go get nuggies slushies and fry fries I'm going to go to bulls dam with my little guys watch the excitement and joy from sled rides hot cocoa with marshmallows to get our temperatures to rise after hours and hours of freezing sled rides.

I sit there and listen for my phone to ring when it does my heart starts to sing cuz I know it's my little guys every time it rings it brings tears to my eyes they always ask me why daddy cries I said cuz daddy misses you and they offer to wipe my eyes I love my little guys 🥺🥰