My Weak Soul Poem by Tebogo Angela Poen

These emotions be working against my will
If I could, I’d take the pill
To kill the hill formed in my heart
If I could use a drill
To destroy every piece of doubt
Can’t even take my meals
For real, I’m ill
I wonder how it would feel
If I peel the hard skin, covering my feelings
And take out what does not belong there
Insecurities, jealousy and greed
For love containing these can kill
Surely my heart would heal
My whole life would chill
My soul would be free

This is not some exaggeration

These thoughts will definitely drive me crazy
No matter how I try to be busy
Or lazy to think
I get dizzy at every thought of you
In a way that makes me clumsy at work
Wondering if you miss the cosy moments like I do
Or just snoozy with none to lose
Hang on.. maybe I’m just a lil tipsy
But why this tizzy feeling at every thought of you?
Why is my breath coming wheezy?
Is this me going woozy?
Am I losing it?

This inner conflict is just so strong
Knocking me down
From the crown of my head to my feet
I drown inside
I frown at every happy picture of us
Am I a fool of love already?
Well... in a good way
Super cool isn’t it?
I bow to a guy who succeeded in making me feel this way
All hail king
Your honour, majesty, highness
Your kingdom in my heart
Your reign
Your love and strength

Yoh hai shame! I’m unable
My soul is unstable
I know and trust you won’t gamble with it
Maybe I’m just being unreasonable
#sighs

Thou art missed