Never Knowing Poem by AshleyMarie Rippey

as i sit here and look at all the scars on my wrists
i watch the new ones bleeding out
the pain from it is no longer there
im used to seeing the blood pouring out of the open wounds
dripping on the floor
like sumone pulling out an iv needle
im so used to sitting on the floor day and night
watching as my blood slowly drips down my wrists, throat, and chest
i wait for someone to find me
but noone ever notices that i'm bleeding i cover up all my cuts and scars as im bleeding out
i'm watching as people walk by me not knowing
never showing what i've done
never seeing the pain i caused myself
i'm waiting for someone to notice i'm dying slowly
puking blood, cutting my wrists& my throat.
my parents will never know how i truly feel and what i've done
they'll never see the pain i caused
they asked me if i was suicidal and
i said no
they ask me if i cut i said yes
they asked me why and
i said because i'm bleeding my pain away
in little cuts and big
i keep on bleeding slowly until it's my time to die
nobody knows what's happening
the look of death in my eyes
always cold and hurt
watching others live their life happily
my family's better off anyway
does anyone see what i'm doing to myself
i guess not it only shows that my family doesn't care