AshleyMarie Rippey

If you were there,
When I saw her die,
you would know the pain i saw in her eyes.
You would never believe her last words or laughter.
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as i sit here and wonder
is this what my life is supposed to be?
why am i living?
look at me.
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living in my world of pain and hate
it doesn't make sense anymore
seeing you lying there
dying right in front of my eyes
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the day you appeared i lost my heart
to you, to love
And from that day i cannot part
From you, from love
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I try so hard to give you what you need
But it isn't easy when your me
When you've been hurt so many times, and put through hell,
and you just wana die,
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as i sit here and look at all the scars on my wrists
i watch the new ones bleeding out
the pain from it is no longer there
im used to seeing the blood pouring out of the open wounds
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To everyone i care about,

to all the people that know me and to all the people that care.
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living in a world that dont breathe
trying to leave
need need to find a way out
looking all around
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I made a mistake,
so what don't we all?
mine was losing you,
losing you to death,
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im stuck i this world
thats full of lies
im stuck in this world with all the hate
wherever you go
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i've grown up in a house of lies
why you may ask?
how should i know
all i was taught was lie, lie, lie
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i've lived my life
to it's fullest extent
i've made it through
the one thing i just couldn't do
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where were you when i was two?
where were you when i needed you?
you weren't there
because you didn't care,
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it's done...
complete...
ready for digestion...
introspection...
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Visions of you become so blurry,
As your presence becomes more soothing
I can feel it on my shadow
And my shadow follows me.
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the winters thin white coat
that lies on th ground
of all the places for me to drown
Lying here under the ice.
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Is there such a thing as love?
Or is there a different meaning?
Is it really a true passion or is it just a saying?
Why do they define love, as a deep, tender feeling for someone?
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Nothing left to say, nothing to lose
Don't say what you can't undo

Empty memories still wanting to be filled
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