November 15th Poem by Rayona Dawson

Sometimes I wanna scream out I still love you but he'll never love me the same, whatever love he had for me is just a distant memory smothered by the insanity, I'll never be by his side... I'll always be condemned to shadows, because he's ashamed of me and we will always be apart, never will I have his last name or have my family be complete, no white fence or family pictures but nothing more than a mistake that he made, thoughts of me are tainted & My heart don't understand it because im still in love with him throughout everything, I cry at night knowing the dream I'll have tonight, will never come true... My son won't have a happy two parent home to come home too, but my hearts Naïve and my love and my son grows each day and all I want to do is tear my heart out so I don't hurt no more like its the worst pain to know your love will be around you but never with you, your heart forever teased praying one day he'll say he loves you back and things won't change and that you don't have to hide anymore, but it never does... His love is ashamed