Oh Mother Be Ashamed Of Me Poem by Mary Murphy

Dear Mom,
I need help,
I’ve done something wrong.
I was too weak,
And I thought It’d make me strong.
I had an abortion;
I killed him, now he’s dead.
I’ve never seen a face so cute,
When stained with blood so red.
Oh mother, be ashamed of me.
I watched my child die.
I never thought it be that way,
I never thought I’d cry.
I now know what I did,
And knowing kills me inside.
My baby boy was given life,
But his life I denied.
Sure I’m not mother material…
And my life is a mess,
But how does that make his life,
Valued any less?
I didn’t want to tell you,
I wanted to hide the sin,
But now I need your help…
Through this bigger mess I’m in.
I wanted you to love me,
And never to let you down.
I loved to see you smile,
And dreaded every frown.
But mom if you had seen me,
If you were simply there,
You would have been so horrified,
It was such a nightmare.
Oh mom, my loving mother
I know you taught me well,
I should have acted smarter…
But look how far I feel.
I have no excuse,
You told me doctors would lie,
And oh how you were right….
They said no one would die.
I will always suffer,
My heart, my mind, my soul
This pain is just so powerful,
I’ll never gain control.