Online Love (Edited And Changed) Poem by Linda Racaniello

I once a had friend that I met online
He was addict just like me
Our conversations were filled laughter
I dreamed of living happily ever after

He spoke of his sobriety and how long he’d be clean
He told me I could stay clean too
I thought with his help anything was possible
My days of sobriety were far too few

I thought about cleaning up my act
Getting sober and staying that way
We spoke of love and meeting
I didn’t think our happiness was fleeting

I never imagined that it was lies
We were friends and almost lovers
Every night I turned on my computer
In hopes to speak with no one other

Everyday – I fell a little more in love
Though never ever told him so
I dreamt the first time we’d be kissing
I thought immediately of never missing

After a few months, he told me of his gf
But he said, things weren’t working out
That he thought that things were over
That more often they would scream and shout

I figured she would eventually move on
And that we would get a chance to be together
But he lied to me, about his life
She wasn’t just gf, she was his wife

I stopped talking to him, he never knew
How much he hurt me, how much I cared
A year later, I got a email from him
She left him, he was using again and scared

But I couldn’t forgive him for lying
though I often thought of the dream
I never talked to him again
about what could have been

I guess he's doing the best he can
I hear from him every once in a while
more often than I don't write back
even though he sends e-cards and smiles