Portia Lane

Out In Time

Broken

Broken promises
Broken words
Broken heart
Tear drops
Cries left unheard
Dreams blurred
And deterred
No one left to observe
Cause no one feels it’s their turn
To care

Return the favor
Once received
Clean my wounds as they bleed
Cleaved flesh
Soul turning green

With envy
Cause in me
My soul screams
To be let out
Like the blood that covers
The seams of my hoodie

Mind scrambling
Asking
Why would he?

Why would he
Push me away
Then
Ask me not to go

Why would he
Say he loves me
Then act as if it wasn’t so

Doesn’t he know that it hurts
And what’s worse is
That I try
Or should I say
Tried
To love him

And I tried to win him over
Tried to get him to stop
Playing games with my heart
But wait
Not yet has come the worst part
You see
My pleading
Had no meaning
Just his ego was I feeding
So he continued to treat me
With disrespect

Soon memories
Of nights I stayed up and wept
Climbed
Or should I say
Took precedence in my mind
Began to play
Over time and time
Again

And in the end
I couldn’t take it
Make it or fake it
So I lost all control

Now I’m laying I a casket
Arms crossed
Cause of death
No one knows
But me

That was the end of the dream
And the beginning of the end of what
Was once known as our reality

Realized when I woke up
He and I could no longer be
He was pushing me to my limits
Destination insanity
And eventual
Mortality
So I broke the bond he had on me
Ended the relationship
And now I’m free

Free to dream again
Cause now my vision’s clear
No longer is it left to mere
Transitory hope
No longer with that sickness
Do I have to cope
Cause now I promise I have a broader scope
This past won’t be repeated
Never again will my soul be defeated
By a man who me, all our time together, mistreated

My goal now
Is to disregard the anger
Forget about the pain
Find another outlet
Forever happy remain

And this poem goes out to
Anyone who’s dreams
Have been slain
By a person they loved
But who didn’t love them back the same

There’s hope for you yet
You just gotta let them know
If they don’t treat you better
Then your gonna have to go
And if they don’t treat you better
Leave without looking back
Not another second chance

No more dreams on hold
Do what you want to do
Satisfy the desires of your soul

And don’t look back for a second
At the heart you never had
Remember the pain it caused you
Remember the dreams it cost you
Remember how the world
nearly lost you
And Never go back

Poem Submitted: Monday, November 2, 2009
Poem Edited: Saturday, July 9, 2011

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Comments about Out In Time by Portia Lane

  • Tatiana Guerrier (12/24/2009 5:00:00 PM)

    'There’s hope for you yet
    You just gotta let them know
    If they don’t treat you better
    Then your gonna have to go
    And if they don’t treat you better
    Leave without looking back
    Not another second chance'

    this happened to me once, and i've sure most people out their have gona through the same.. it's reasonable and understandable.. i ♥ this poem, lol i should have read this when i was going through it but it's very touching and i like the way you grouped it together though it was long it was worth reading.. GREAT JOB

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  • Just Me (12/20/2009 2:39:00 AM)

    'Broken promises
    Broken words
    Broken heart
    Tear drops
    Cries left unheard
    Dreams blurred
    And deterred
    No one left to observe
    Cause no one feels it’s their turn
    To care'
    strong opening. very easy to place yourself in the shoes of the speaker. beautifully written. it tells a story, but teaches a lesson to the reader. conclusions drawn through experience are the best. i was lead through a painful situation, and moved with compassion for the victom.
    'My pleading
    Had no meaning
    Just his ego was I feeding
    So he continued to treat me
    With disrespect'
    another powerful piece. i love the flow of this section. many women find themselves in this sad situation, and it is encouraging to read someone touch on this subject. the more real the situation, the more powerful the message, and this is definately powerful. i feel you took me on a journey and upon return i am now ready to take flight and fight against the world. definately my favorite of your pieces. continue writting. i am looking forward to reading more of you work.

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  • DEE RAAIN (11/2/2009 9:24:00 PM)

    It's a really good poem, just the fact i understand from my point of view. But maybe if you rearrange tsome parts to make it feel deeper, it will be an awesome poem! ! because everybody in a way has a different opinion, different style, and some people just understand the poems in many different ways! ! i know tears of acid is a great name, but how i informed to had put the poem was that you had to understand stand in metaphorically speaking ' in this was DEEP within to get my poem'..! ! :) but thanks i listened to your opinion, , ..! ! : P

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  • Marieta MaglasMarieta Maglas (11/2/2009 6:37:00 PM)

    ''Doesn’t he know that it hurts
    And what’s worse is
    That I try
    Or should I say
    Tried
    To love him''
    nice lyric poem.touching..keep writing.....

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