Pain Poem by Kimberly Lindsey

When you hold me in your arms, I feel safe, content.
When you kiss me, I feel loved, wanted, I love your scent.
But then you push me away, with your cold, callous way.
My heart shrinks, my breath dies, and all I can do is cry.

You withhold your love, affection and warmth,
And I feel my soul, shrivel and die.
You ignore me, look through me, and my heart breaks anew.
You berate me, scold me, and make me blue.

Then….
when you’re through, you love me again.
I am so grateful for your love, can we break the chain?
I am eager to please you, anything I will do, it is so insane.

Why do we do it? This cycle of pain?
You hurt me, and I let you, over and over again.
Can you not see that I love you?
Do you even care?

And how can I love you, when this, I can not bare.
Is this how you love? Do you know what love is?
Are you so insecure, that my pain is your gain?
Does my heart have to bleed, before you are pleased?

If I leave you, will you care? Or just find someone new?
Can I leave you? Am I strong enough? I don’t know what to do.
I feel empty without you, but with you I am abused.

I am scared, I am alone, either way I go.
I want your love, I want you.
I am scared, I am alone, either way I am screwed.