Paralised Persona Poem by Ishmael Mabhiza

Humpty dumpty, bumpy, roughy
It is my whole life, filled with misery
I have no happiness
I am not delighted
I am not glad even on a sunny day
I can not be joyful though joy exists
Bound, thinking of the past
Yearning I cant surpass

When you are not financially independent
You are like a stray dog
You can be sick of rabbies
One bite 'staying with one person'
Rabbies spreads fast, - so rapid than ever.
No opportunity to riseup and noone to cheer you up

I see it, I feel it, I hear it-.....
Melancholy stifles me-.....
I yearn for a better living-....
Throwing away God's principles- -
Not a thing about Him ever-'Living by myself only'
Walking alone-thinking about me and myself only- -

When prayer doesnt mean anything to me
When I am intangled
When I need help and nowhere to find it
When God's answer seems so far and- -
When God's reply seems to be neigh existing

Cracking my head thinking of death as a solution
Crying inwardly, stressed but cant release it
Seemingly not satisfied with even the best quality of life-today
Even when one provides you with-
Accomodation, food-
I always think of tomorrow-'future'