Questions To The Universe Poem by Pauline Levesque

The Universe whispers in my ear but I am deaf to its message or
Unable to comprehend.
Is it coded for I am unable decipher the code….
Am I afraid to hear or just not getting what is required from me?

Swirls of mist circle me… and I breathe the air of discontent, anger, frustration..
And heartbreak for no resolution has come to mind….no answer pops over my head like a cartoon bubble….
I worry that all this strife with no answers, no peace will suffocate us.

We act as teenagers do with all the teenage angst of youth… entrapped in our adult minds and hearts… …..
There is a lesson here…I see in the mirror your actions, your face… your spirit…
Stubborn and determined to find that peace, the answer to the universal question…
We can’t let go…we won’t let go….there is something….I feel it..so close….it’s
Infuriating!

I stare at the clouds, the blue sky’s and imagine a God I have never met except in my dreams….
Asking the eternal questions, why? What is it you want from me, from us that such pain has to be learned, experienced?
As I write my poem to the mists of God’s, is it as simple as letting go of all control, of all weakness of self…to purely love with no expectations, no demands, no judgments….can I mirror love and only love? Strength of self would come if I let go? So why am I so afraid and is this the lesson after all?

Contemplating, examining and dissecting life is so simple, living it is the hard part.
If I let go of ego…will the universe swallow me up? If I love you fearlessly will the irony of the God’s take you away after all?
Fear..is the virus of the living and I am contaminated. I need to cleanse myself and find what has been there all along.
I do love….I wonder if it would just pour out like a river…cleansing my very being?

Or maybe…the teenagers that reach out to each other are growing towards something?
A place neither of us have been before?
A love so different then what either of us have experienced?
I would like to think that we are going through growing pains…..Love always comes with a price tag and the universe in it’s infinite wisdom has collided our spirits, our energies….. to learn and to love a new way….our way.

I have to smile at this possibility for no other answer has emerged.