Reactions Poem by Stephan van Pinksteren

To express my feelings,
It's to hard for me.
No one I can trust.
Nowhere else to be.

I feel weak an exhausted,
Tense and tired.
Depressed and down
Feet's are bound and hands wired

Crying every day,
When no one else can see.
I found happiness,
But it wasn't for me.

She left me to die,
Not thinking what so ever.
Every day I ask why,
Since then and forever.

I ask myself everyday,
Can I be helped,
Can I be happy.
After all the pain I felt.

I talk to people,
Listen to what they say.
I burst out in tears,
From pain that never goes away

I tried to feel normal,
I tried to forget.
Everyday I see her face,
Like the first day we met.

Why can't I forgive,
Why can't I surrender.
Why oh why does this happen.
I've always been a pretender.

I don't know who I am,
I haven't got a clue.
I have changed to much.
My face has turned blue.

Unrecognizable,
Beyond repair.
Please kill me this instant.
I can't bear the cloak I wear.

Why did it turn out this way,
This life isn't what I meant.
Could it be over.
Is this the end.