Red Heart Poem by Nell Sheridan

Red Heart
(Explanation ofRed Heart)
Red Heart Campaign works to raise awareness of violent deathswithinour country,
Red Hearts areshared via social media as a supportfor victims lost and their family,
Red Hearts are for both thosefallen and those survivors whoare still slowly healing,
Share a Red Heart ending violence breakingsilenceand support thoseappealing,
(TheWife)
No I never sit with my back to an open door anymore a noted strangeness itseems,
No II nevermanage to smile at allanymore the glory of mylifeno longer gleams,
Yes I feel responsible for every single wrong that I consciouslydo thus experience,
I apologize every day for anybody'sperceived or imagined minorinconvenience,
(The Event)
Dear Husband, I noticed that your stance is rather different todayyou seem a little tense,
Dear Husband, I noticed that your striding quickly toward me now it's time for defense,
Dear Husband, can you please tell me the crime that I have apparently committed,
Dear Husband, tell me before you judge me unfairly and I'm sowrongly convicted,
(The Effects)
Dear Husband, I will apologize sincerelyfor that which I didn't and would neverdo,
I will promise to be better at all you expect of me and every second commit to you,
Yourwaging war on a woman less than half your sizeholding absolutely no power,
Dear Husband, Tell me how many injurieswill it take to satisfyyou this veryhour? ,
(The Reasoning)
Are my bruises not enough to satisfy your lust for totalcontrol and hateful violence? ,
Is not my blood upon your hands atonement foryour misinterpretation ofinsolence? ,
Why do you have more rights than I?We are people yes both of us one and the same,
However there is just no end and no escape no matter what I do I am always to blame,
(The Resignation)
Dear Husband,make no mistake I have resigned myself to my very end by your hand,
I used to laugh and dance but now there is only violence consequences with demand,
I had friends and hobbies things which I enjoyed now there's only you and your justice,
I'm afraid of people because you becomeenraged so I have no choice except solace,
(The Prediction)
Just a mute canary in her cage that cantbreathe without permission or make a choice,
Yes somewhere deep inside of me I hear the desperate screaming of my inner voice,
Leave it screamsrun fast and far but only Iknow this devil and his truest extremes,
Judge me not my friends and family for fear it controls my nightmares and my dreams,
(The Conclusion,)
I have conceded and apologized for wrongs I didn't own staringat the barrelsightlessly,
Is it such a crime to just exist? because my existenceinfuriates you withsuch constancy,
Dear Husband, when your anger finally pushes you across the final barrier to the edge,
When you lose control and pull that easy trigger because I deny that which you allege,
(The Request)
Dear Husband, you do not know this but my favourite flowers are purple and white,
Dear Husband, my favourite song is The Call and so long agoI really loved to write,
Dear Husband, mydeath is fast approaching I am running out of time so so rapidly
Dear Husband, when I'm gone will you wear a Heart andtake someresponsibility?

Dear Husband will you wear a Red Heart for me?

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