Redemption Poem by Hadyn Rodriguez

I'm disgusted with trust and with you.
While i sit here I try to forget but the darkness prevails. I hear voices it makes me want to die.
I won't survive this because I'm not alive. Theirs so much death that I've made those my memories.
Im not sure what I'll become I feel all of me is gone. I'm not alive it's not possible.
Your stretched across all of my shame. The torment and pain cover me.
I don't know how to make the pain less painless for me. It's my dream and everything to me.
No one understands this at all. Probably a myth but it's more a reason to be in pain and bleed till theirs no more.
All this build inside of me that i'm not scared anymore to let it out.
All the blood and tears you'll see but don't ask. I'm torn into pieces that i'd rather choke and die then try to make you understand.
This is all I am just broken bloody scarred and in pain. Wish this was all a dream but it's real and my life.
I hurt because of moments And regrets. It's all a lie I just have pain. Now and forever
the pain lives on. I'm gonna have to keep paying for all my consequences. The knives and burning didn't help one bit. Stabbing myself did me no good.
No matter how bad the drugs or how bad the pain is nothing helps it doesn't go away.
I wonder how much longer do I have to live in pain. The scars I have to look at everyday all 95 of my scars are with me forever. I don't know how much more of this pain I can take. Until I die this pain is with me.....