Rejected Poem by Edme Seraphina

I love you, I really do
But the words still ring in my ears
Telling myself every new year
I'm going to let go of you
But yet, you've been engraved in my heart

I feel it deeper when I see you
Cuz I know you'll never feel it too
How I wish
I often say

Less dramatic, harder to bear
Moulded in me, the master of despair
Torpidity and numbness
Stuck inside me, can't seem to get it out

Everything is darker than ever
You've melted me
I guess I had a heart meant for destruction
Because you regularly crumple it under feet
...
I'm imprisoned in my mind
Panting, hoping for the last breath
An alien in my own life
An unknown land

Feel like I'm paying dearly
For the little joy encountered
Warned against happiness
But now,
Blood's oozing from shroud marks
Making me my own contradiction

My unhealed breathing heart,
It's a part of me