Replay Poem by Asha Adeana

Just looking at you
You just cant tell
Holding your hand
Just isn't the same
Standing around not saying a word
But being alone is where is all starts
There torchere begins
With the grabbing and pulling
No one could tell
saying no i just cant
Just isn't enough
Pull and a push away
Just seeming to get closer
Holding back the tears
The memories of 13 all over again
A place i just don't want to be
But just looking at you
No one could ever tell
A smoke and a puff
Just wanting it all to stop
All this pain is still here
Just needing someone to hold me
But no one is there
Yelling on the inside
For this is hard to bare
Tears of defeat
Voice all broken and shattered
Not saying a word
But still no i cant
The chocking and grabbing
Still going on grasping for air
Just until a tear falls down
You just cant get it
The pain left inside
13 plays over again
But not looking in your eyes
So i try to back away
And say goodbye
For this feeling deep inside
Is yelling NO!
But you just don't stop
Chocking grasping for air once again
Just one more time
And i still cry to you goodnight
For none of this is right
So i'm gone in tears
And my head to the ground
Hi i'm 13 again
Broken and shattered not a breath to spare
Just a tear is all
Anyone cant ever see
So i'll look down
And cry in defeat
For i'm really 18