Restless Poem by Eman Awad

There is still a sea that i haven't stepped it's sand,
there is still a ryhme that i haven't figured out yet.
There are so many emotions that i couldn't understand,
and there is still that some one who i can't forget.
There is still that guy who broke me,
the guy who i can't get over and my life is ending.
And it seems like i'm lost endessly,
in this story, saying i'm fine, knowing i'm pretending.
I'm hurt that i can't see,
which road to take, and i'm still where i was left.
I lost the life in me,
and i thought that my love to you was my gift.
Where am i, can you tell,
am i some where you've been to?
I have it in me to kill,
any thing that reminds me of loving you.
There are still words that i haven't said,
and they are shocking me to death, my love.
I wish that you or i to be dead,
but death will never be satisfying or even enough.
I feel like crying till i'm over this,
but tears never eased that pain growing in me.
That winding and killing lonliness,
i wish you try it, how i wish you let go of me.
Still, breathless around you,
and still restless and my life isn't that well.
I hated my self already to be true,
nothing would ever get me out of this hell.
Like i've given up to the pain,
to grow in me and kill the beautiful and the serene.
All are gone but you remain,
you're the scariest nightmare and the greatest dream.
I'm not in love, i'm in the agony of love i confess,
i thought that my lucky day came when we met.
But i was left aching, hurting and restless,
that day of luck is the memory that i die to forget.