Sad, Lonely Child Poem by rachel mcdaniel

take a step and look back all you ever wanted to be as a child is someone that is loved and cared for, my peace isnt done in my head. being the middle child sucks but iam as patient with is as i can. living a life with abuse and lies. seeing my mom walk the line all the time.it shouldnt be like that right. all the lies gambling and mis treatment of everything my mom did as i seen most of it. its hard to love when u grew up in lies and betrayal your whole life and understanding it wasnt your fault you were a sad lonely child just growing up to make little ones of our own trying to get by.your grandparents and ur step dad is all that you have had growing up that didnt make u cry or break your heart mutiple times its nice having parents by your side. i grew up struggling as a single parent. but i did it. i learned from it.being in abiusve relationship with someone u had a baby with u would think would protect you but didnt.men lie but everyone lies.we lie to ourseleves everyday because we cant face reality of being lonely and sad loss most of the time. but we r all trying to survive. forgiveness is what i try, but being a sad lonely child sometimes can be rewarding you grow up to be stronger and better than what you were before.