Scars Poem by Shannon Wade

How long must these scars pierce me?
Why is it that new ones continue to appear?
Why is my peace always disrupted?
When will the tug a war end?
I've been loyal
I've been true
Am I banned from drinking the sweet joy of content?
Doesn't my heart unveil pure eagerness
Yet circumstances that challenge my sanity still arise
I shake my head in confusion
I hold back tears with desperation
Telling myself 'chin up'
Yet my shoulders show years of unresolved pain
I let my thoughts remain a secret whisper
I've worn mystery and optimism in fury
Yet
Here we are again
But this time it feels like envy
Instead of guilt
This time it feels as though the jealous is throwing daggers
If I am wrong I simply ask for clarity
If I am wrong I simply as for direction along the way
My path has been relatively smooth despite the occasional hiccups
But hey
We all have those days
If my compass is broken
Please refine it
I feel so lost
So broken
I've become entrenched by pains shadow
I had limited say on this matter
But does that mean anything?