Secret Poem by Hopeless Heart

My secret is out
It’s the best thing I’ve ever felt
Now there is no need to hide
Because I have people in whom to confide,

It was the best decision I ever made
And now maybe the scars will fade
My friends are the only ones who know
But I don’t go and put it on show,

I don’t want my family to find out
Because then they’ll ask what it’s all about,
I just want help and understanding
It’s not like I sat around planning.

I want them to understand why,
But then again so do I,
I’ve forgotten the reason I began
All I remember is the razor in my hand,

It’s so hard when you don’t know why
Sometimes I ask myself why I even try,
I never end up anywhere but here,
Always with the same old fears,

It’s the worst feeling of them all
Not knowing why you’re about to fall,
Maybe I should cross my fingers and close my eyes
Take a giant leap and say goodbye.

29th October 2007