Seeing Red Poem by May N

seeing red when I think of you
hurt, anger, and betrayal cloud my vision
wanting to hurt you as you have me
as i see you holding her gingerly in my mind

screaming my hurt in your face
so loud in my ears, so soft in yours
you barely listen, ignoring my attempts
sneering smugly as you take her in your arms

Hate fills my thoughts, seeing crimson
clutching my fist tightly, holding myself back
watching her pass me unaware
wanting to wrap my fingers around her neck

a wicket smile creeps onto my face
taking pleasure in the thoughts
wishing that they might be true
that i could watch her turn blue

until a shiver of unease takes hold of me
as i think of what you've made of me
I'll just settle on hating you deeply
me against you, my hate will never cease