(She tells us:) you don't even notice from the memory Poem by Tonnus Oosterhoff

(She tells us:) you don't even notice from the memory
going, I don't at least,
but from the way he acts. Ungainliness,
incorrect use of words. He began
He began by breaking his leg at ski-ing, that was
a kind of bravura. Though he was always terribly
careful.
So terribly careful. And also. I


I saw it from his tennis too.
He no longer attacked at tennis,
it was just defending.
He reacted oddly to the children. Rea.
I said so


And constantly the same book on holiday.


And at work. He just/wanted to stay/like that (on the bridge),
(the captain of the ship), his
colleagues protected


him. Him the.
But always beginning something that's already been done,
again and again, it
was no good anymore.
Finally at home so long the home


Now I have seen this (she tells us:
there's a wind, but that's outside), been through it, he
I don't even know how to remember him
he wasn't even the same anymore


and of course he is still there . . .
but now this is so
I know with death there's nothing more I know
I know for sure.