Should Of Poem by Nathan Barkley

I know that I should of never started it.
Now my mind is shredded to pieces and my heart is about to rip

It all started when you came into my life
you sat beside me the first day you made everything seem alright
I could't believe how you made me feel
No dull day
a smile across my face everyday
nothing to worry about
Everyone knew we were going to get together no doubt
but something was telling me at the back of my head
that i should just rip that thought to shreds
It wont work out in the end i said
yet it was your inviting smile and your harmonious voice that put that internal struggle to rest

I don't know what to do
Maybe I join you and die with you
or I just stay living forever
alone, and desperate for love
I know the right choice but that is so, so tough
lets just face it i'm just a guy
after awhile I'll wear down and die.

At first you were like delicious wine
but after awhile I got so drunk, I thought I died
I got so deep into the drink of darkness
I was to blind to see the real person behind this
So i grasped desperately for the light and left you behind this door
now i don't want you anymore
but for some reason some part will always love you

I don't know what to do
Maybe I join you and die with you
or I just stay living forever
alone, and desperate for love
I know the right choice but that is so, so tough
lets just face it i'm just a guy
after awhile i'll wear down and die

I dont know whats in store for me
but the possibilities are endless
like the sea
but I wont deny that I was in love with you
That part was true

(I wrote this along time ago)