Shut The Out Ii Poem by Vanessa Kingsley

I’m sorry
The burden I’ve put on you
But I can’t take it
They’re going to you
And me
The pain doubled
I’m sorry
I’m shutting them out
They’ll never leave completely
No
But the guilt I feel
The guilt I know…
I fail time and time again
I can’t correct it
Stop it
Every second, minute, hour, day
I saw felt, heard
I screamed, cried
No more
I’m sorry
The pain’s increased for you
And in that, the pain is still in me
But…I can’t
I’m not “alone” anymore
People will notice
What they don’t know
Understand
They persecute
I can’t feel that again
Won’t feel that way again
Exiled, lonely, fearful
And yet still I am
Still I fear
The guilt, people, screams, dreams
They mold into my life
But still…I won’t
I’m sorry