Silent Screaming; Poem by Jessica Lowe

These tears I cry
This bitter taste
I can’t seem to erase
You make this harder everyday
With all the words that you say
They come out in a mumbled slur
Every thing’s become a blur

These feelings I can’t control
On me you have this hold
I shouldn’t have, but I had no choice
That I took comfort in your voice
You hold me close
And I feel so warm
See this is why I feel so torn

I hate the way that I do feel
These wounds they never will heal
For I’ve broken down and I’m in too deep
Oh my selfish sorrows that I weep

He said he loved me
I felt so slack
Cause I couldn’t even say it back
I have wanted this for so long
But now something feels wrong

My dreams they bring me visions of you
But at the same time ones of him too
I don’t want to do this
I don’t want to have to choose
Please don’t make me do this
Please don’t make me choose
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