Sinful Poem by Razya Sultana

My world is beginning to fall apart,
I feel I will soon be lonely.
This doesn't seem to change,
Time is making a thought of stopping.
The whole conception of my life
Is spinning through a blackout,
I can't find myself out of this mist,
My view is being slaughtered by darkness.
I feel my sins on my surface,
They are stopping me from breathing.
I haven't asked for pardon to Lord.
Turned the calender pages but never thought
I would have to close my account.
I feel so sinful and am doubtful
If I would ever fall in heaven.
Clearly, its really late to repent,
I'm sorry, but still, for what happened.