Slowly Poem by Pamela Mote

Straying away
Walking around like a lost dog
Nothing left to make me smile
There's too many stormy clouds
Where do I go from here?
I sit with my thoughts
My questions are left unanswered
And I continue to drown in my faults
How can I make this better?
What is so wrong with me?
I search and search for nothing
Slowly I feel like I am dieing
Excuse me if I need sometime alone
I just need to figure out where I belong
My heart continues to beat slowly
And I stand looking into the fog
What I am searching for can not help me
God and I know this very clear
Why do I put myself away from Him?
He's the only one who can give me strength
But slowly I step backwards
I step into the world and into all the hurt
I'm slowly seeing myself
Becoming somebody that in the end
Only God can help