Smile By Darien Poem by Darien Trask

Some days it's hard to smile
It's hard to show your teeth
And pretend everything is okay
Some days my smile is genuine
It's like I feel like I'm on top of the world
Some days my smile is fraudulent
They say never walk around with the look of hurt and pain
I can't pretend everything is okay when it's not
Problems come full force
My mood swings change from time to time
The sun turns black in my eyes
And the moon at night turns into the devils eyes when I'm looking at it
I'm not okay
And that's ok
I've realized IM NOT PERFECT
Boy, do I wish I was though
I wouldn't have to deal with problem after problem
I know it's all in my head and
I have nothing to worry about
I KNOW I KNOW
But I wonder when I'm down and out
And people try to give me advice
DO THEY TAKE THEIR OWN ADVICE AS WELL?
I'm sorry
I'm just venting my feelings out
We all are dealing with something
And though it's easy for some to smile
For some it's not
Some are dealing with deep within issues
Most of us don't even know about
But you know what?
I'll crack a smile
When i feel like it
I'm not about to pretend everything is okay
And the rainbow is multiple colors in my eyes
When all I see is
BLACK! DARKNESS! A hollow hole that's leads to NOWHERE!
So if you see me
And you wonder why my face is plain
Plain and stiff
Just know I'm dealing with something
But I'm okay
No not really
But I'm okay!
Really!
I'll deal with it and tackle everything that needs to be handled
And when the time is right
I'll smile with joy again!
A smile that'll take me on every planet
A smile I can look at in the mirror
And i can finally say
"I'm truly happy and nothing or no one will take that from me"