Sorry Poem by Sana Ashher

I never thought I was so special
I never thought I made such a difference to the whole scenario
I never thought my 'yes' or 'no' would've mattered so much
I never thought I was so important
That I had underestimated myself was simply an understatement
As to what I had done to my very being
They were fighting over me at first and I didn't know
My apathy for my place was evidently seen
I had been stolen from what I was before to what they wanted me to be
They thought my oath was in fact a lie
But I know it wasn't
I was just feeling ambivalence
I felt so trapped
They asked me if I have been forced, if it wasn't what I had wanted.
I had no replies to give
I wasn't living for myself anymore
They thought they would do well by transferring people from one place to another
But how can they swap their hearts and souls
Making leader the person they think is the best
I may have had the ability, but lacked confidence
I'm sorry to all those who relied on me…
I'm sorry