Sorry Is Not Enough Poem by Dalyn GRAHAM

I have been working on this email for a long time now this has not happened over night. i have had time to really think about how im feeling. we have been living beyond just sharing our two lives as one, you knew all of my ins and outs as I did so. I know I have hurt you and upset you, and that nothing I can say or do can take away that hurt right now.I still can't believe that our friendship faced a tragic end..I am a Criminal...hurting you was my crime never wanted to let you down it's been a months I am having this feeling and I am so down.No matter how much you want to hurt me, punish me, destroy me and break me. No matter how much you hate me, and despise me. I feel no hatred or bitterness towards you. All I want is for you to be happy and if that means the things that you are doing to me now are making you happy then I respect that. Your happiness and the kids happiness is all i want. Please forgive me for all the pain that I have brought to you. The worst day of my life, was when I first walked out on you when our daughter died. And now I truly realize how stupid I was! I was selfish. Im sorry it has taken me over five years to realize this mistake..Im sorry for not coming to you sooner, Im sorry for causing you this pain. Im sorry... Im sorry....Im sorry. You are my one and only and I LOVE YOU more than life! I know that the pain I have caused you is unforgivable and I know that you probably should not forgive me BUT I cant face this...and I WONT! ! ! I will do everything to prove to you that I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU I will prove to you that I am better Now Im begging you give me one last chance to prove to you how much you mean to me Please ill do everything I would die for you if only it meant you would forgive me! ! ! I know you don't trust me right now, but I will work very hard to regain that trust I know I betrayed you I know I was stupid for letting you go.I probably dont deserve you to forgive me. But Im begging you, please forgive me let me prove to you Im not the same person I used to be..When we met, I was very young and you were the most amazing woman I had ever met. I fell head-over-heels for you. Then my teenage hormones ran wild i got off track, and I behaved very badly. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you in front of your friends and family.It's funny how we started out as strangers. Became friends. Then we were lovers. And now we are strangers again. But still we think about each other. You hoping that I am okay and me hoping that you okay. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me besides the kids.I wish I could move life in Reverse gear and take back holding a lot of things lies, disappointments, everything that has cause us to be here were we are now. This letter is a roll of the dice of the to give me a chance to express my love to you again and even bring us closer than ever before. So I just ask you to understand me for the first and hope for the last time to bring back our love our bond our bodies back as (1) .I love you and there is absolutely no where else in the world i would rather be with other then with our family of five.