Stained Poem by Alex Fazili

I stare feeling
Bored
The time goes by
Slow
And my eyes begin to
Droop
I am tired and I see
Her
Before me shining
Love
Lies as well for it is
Not
Her I know

I stand as I hear a chime
Time to go
We all stand and leave
Frank
I turn to face him
Funny
Best word to describe him
Face
Funny as well
He
Laughs as well as the others
Joke
Is a big hit. They eat it up
Candy
The other pole of me.

Lie define her
And me
We both lie
She lies cosmetically
Don’t
Know why I loved her
Loved
Proper word to use
No
I don’t anymore
I
Am confused by what I said
Don’t
Talk anymore I say
It gets harder to
Speak
Every day to what i
Did
Actions are ink and the world is
Paper

Did I see her wink?
No
Yes I did she
Loves
ME still I don’t know it
Hopes
Created to be crushed
Executioner
Frank walks smiling
Smug
How I am but not
Now

Frank
Yes
How are you
Happy again
Maria?
She is okay
Happy?
No

He leaves in his
Cloud
I know what lies below
Agony
A pit that will devourer him
Soon
Next hour I sit
Ready
She is not here
Happy
I am not. They are
Laughing
I once did but it is gone

Why did I
Why didn’t I
Why did she
Why couldn’t I

Cry
Try
Pry
Die

Maria
She was everything
Now
Frank’s
Every
Second
He
Talks
To
My
Pain
Hurts
Me
Doesn’t
Know
How
I
Feel
Of
Maria

Blue eyes eternal Dress
Maria
Loves Flowers always smiles
Maria
Rips out the flesh
Maria
I once cut her
Maria
A line of Coke
Mistake

I fall to sleep to quickly
Welcome
It soothes me
Welcome
I don’t care
Did
Care for her
Why
Am I crazy?
Why
Do I care
Everything
Was for her and now
Not

One Week
Song
It was good
Unlike
One week ago
One
Boy who was lost
Two
Bodies of Adults
Lust
Overtaken them and
One
Boy saw Manhood’s
Lies

He knew them
He looked for them
He told them
He knew them
HE sold them
He Invinted them
He invited them
He was sold by them
He was lusting for one
Betrayed by one
Lost by one
Sung to death by one
Slow and premature

I wrote this down
Burned
It all in a flame of foprgiveness
That
Should never be given out
I Loved
I Lusted
Was Punished
Why do I care?
Why don’t I move on?
It’s her smile
Body
Too
Much
For any closet temptation
Five minutes of heaven
Heated debate
Of two toungues
All forgiven
By none

I see a friend
No
Yes I approach
Did I
Yes and we talk
I didn’t
Yes we are happy
I wasn’t
Yes I was
No you weren’t

Hey Sarah
Hey Paul
How are you?
Good I heard…
Don’t
Alright… Healing?
Yes.
Don’t kill your self now

Odd
Thought hits
Me where it
Hurts my
Brain

Death
Finality
The final straw
The end of all that is and to become
The way that ends this
A good idea
Failed notion
Nothing further
Thought of it too much already

So how is Michael?
Don’t get me started!
Too much
No…We broke up
Already?
Two weeks
Rumors?
Nasty
Ouch
Not as bad as you
The rumors are true
Worse
No I have heard them all
Same
All true
The drugs?
True
Wow
Not proud
You shouldn’t be

Not My Idea
Became mine some how
Not My Idea
Killed a man
Not Really
True but he OD-
Not My Idea
Not your’s either
True.

I loved her
Who hasn’t
Trying to make me feel better?
No
Good I don’t like it
Sorry
I am sorry
I know we are both tired
Could collapse
Not Die
No
Not Death
Never

Death again
Defeat
Same word almost different meaning
Suicide
Different spelling of defeat
Defeat of the day
Day opposite of Death
Or the same?
If I die would I find out?
Or be reborn