Strength Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Strength

Walking upon the shores
Within these thoughts
Looking out gazing
Upon the fog laden waters
Wondering which way the tide is going


Through all of this
So many memories
Emotions take their control
Flooding right in
A hurricane of processions
Drowning this mind
Upon all the what all happened, personally

And then below
This shipwrecked heart
Trying to find a way to heal
So many rock bottoms
Feeling abandoned
And left alone

Dilapidated self
So much self remorse
Was it all my fault?
Or was it fate
Telling me it ran its course?

And through this
Not an adventure
But dull retreat
Trying to find myself again
Searching deep within
Finding all of my own worth




Broken, but not beyond repair
Searching for direction of self
To guide me to the great thereafter


Not trying to sail home
But a way to fly
All the way up
Going to places
I was once afraid of going


I have to defy my own fears
Grow beyond the past heart broken years
Trust in my own intuition
To where this heart
Feels as if it was floating
Rather than being burnt
Ten times over

I have to do something
Anything, to go on through
All of the pains and anguish
To a paradise
Where these thoughts and feelings
Can finally feel at home


Walking upon the shores
It all starts here
Now or never
I must do this all alone

Then clarity
I can finally roam free
To my brand new journey
Towards my brand new home


Everywhere
This nomadic existence
Shall reside
Perhaps I will never be home

But maybe that is a good thing
When the fog all clears for good
And everything carries on



I have to always be strong