Stuck Poem by Jennifer Gordon

Invisible.
That's all I am.
Unwanted.
By you.
Excluded.
Thats the party that I have become.
I am hidden in the bitter shadows of the day and night. [night and the sun]
And I can feel the pain in my chest due to the looks you give me.
They just aren't right. That pain sets me in a fit of fright.
But when you talk. when I am so filled with anger.
So filled with rage.
Somehow you just wash it all away.
But When you leave. I feel it creeping, crawling, corrupting its way right on back.
I can feel the tears forming as I fight the pain and the love that I lack.
I try to smile right before you and I walk away.
But I know the face that I rearranged to show you has soon disappeared.
the minute we turned, that moment that I feared.
Comes into my heart and turns me around, as I feel the stones crushing me with each and every sound.
Why do you do this to me?
What makes you so important?
Who are you to me?
Are you that person filled with special moments?
I prefer not to think such things.
Since I know what a fight that would bring once I step into the ring.
I am dying inside. The rage and the pain taking over.
I am crying inside. The tears and the fears making me leave my sober.
I don't want this pain anymore.
I want to start anew, erase and change the score.
I long to fill the hole inside.
I am sick of this demented ride.
But I am stuck here on the thought of you.
Holding me back with that wave that you do.
I want to move forward.
Like I know I am meant to.
But I am stuck here on the thought of you.
Holding me back with that wave that you do